I’m choosing to be kind to myself
This week I’m choosing to be kind to myself. I’m choosing to ease off the pressure. I’m choosing to allow myself to sit down when I feel tired and slow down when I feel overwhelmed.
When I started this blog I told myself I would try to post, at least, one post a week. So far I’ve kept this up. But this week I felt overwhelmed by life. I felt all over the place, again. With school starting, extracurriculars following, workmen at home, work, hormonal stuff and everything else in between – I did not manage.
I felt bad. But then I remembered one thing. One of my very first Advice to Our Daughters’ posts tackled this: Treat yourself as you would treat your best friend.
I’m trying to implement this by cutting myself some slack and easing the pressure. I’m also writing about this to share the internal struggle that comes with making such a decision: while the stricter part of me wants to “bring out the whip” and ensure I deliver, the kinder side of me is saying: “it’s okay…. you had a busy week”. A part of me is worried that, if I listen to my kind voice too often, I will lose the rhythm and end up letting go of this blog: my passion project.
So my strict voice is coming in and saying: “this can’t happen again". Which is why I’m trying to silence it by writing this post. And by working to get organised.
For the first time ever I’ve centralised by diary. Before I’d write some stuff in my diary (the one with actual pages) and insert some other stuff in my phone’s calendar. Now, as from this month, everything is inserted on Google Calendar: from school stuff, to personal appointments, social events and tasks. Having clear visibility of my week is helping. In fact… got to run as just received a reminder that there is ballet soon…
Insomma… I’m choosing to listen to the kinder voice this week: because I need it. Because this is what I would tell my best friend.